As I pondered this past year I looked deeply into my own soul, how did I respond to being forced to “slow down”? It was then that I realized; physically everything slowed down, yet in the process of this forced stall, my mind actually sped up… everything was chaotic, so much messaging coming from so many directions that my mind and heart were actually moving at warp speed… creating anxiety over calm and stress over peace…
We have no way to know what God has planned here for us.. for others. But we know with absolute certainty that He is IN it. He has chosen to use us to work out His plan in this community that He has placed us. What an honour to see both sides of a prayer; the one spoken to the Lord of Lords and King of Kings, and the one He is answering before our very eyes.
The other beautiful thing about prayer that many people don’t recognize… it’s a two way conversation. Many of us get caught up in the Vending machine in the sky kind of prayers… God I need…. Yet we forget to look at the many things He has already provided for us.
These criss-cross prayers became like a bridge, and this bridge spanned across the chasm of the unknown. That valley deep below that causes us to fear and worry, this valley that if unchecked can lead to depression and anxiety. God started painting a picture in my mind of a wooden suspension bridge.
Two years ago, when I first wrote this journal entry, I could not see a future through the clouds of pain. “Faith Not Fear” was my daily mantra as I struggled to put one foot in front of the other. As I sit here writing today, I can look back and see the journey through a “post-perspective”, a rear view look in the mirror.
Lord Jesus, thank you for being my strength when mine is not sufficient. Thank you for letting me see glimpses of You in the midst of the darkness. Thank you for drawing to me when I pray and seek Your face in the midst of the unknown.
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